Quick Update

It’s been awhile…  Life has been sort in the valley part of the road. Although using the word valley makes it seem not so bad. It’s been a difficult time with Peanut all of sudden turning into a Terrible Four. I hope there is such a thing and it’s a phase just as Terrible 2′s and 3′s were.

I’ve mentioned in the last post that she started wetting the bed all of a sudden. One day, she could sleep through the night to next day, she couldn’t. So, it has continued. She’s in overnight diapers still and she continues to wake up with the diaper wet for the most part despite everything we’ve tried.

Then all of sudden, she couldn’t sleep through the night. Perhaps, related to peeing anxiety? Who knows. Then she was okay with sleeping and the next day, she started having tantrums at daycare.  Multiple tantrums because she didn’t want to join circle time, she didn’t want to clean up, she didn’t want to….. if you looked at her wrong, full on screaming, crying and it finally culminated with her hitting her teacher.

And then just like that she stopped. Now she’s back to being a great listener, after giving us hell for 10 days.

And right after that, it’s as if she can’t be good 24 hours a day, something has to give, she started having sleeping issues. Waking up multiple times for numerous reasons to finally about week ago, just refusing to go to sleep at all. Screaming, crying, kicking, shaking the crib, the works.  After we’ve tried everything short of letting her sleep with us, we’ve given up and now we’re just letting her cry it out. I’m so stressed out and tense, my sleep cycle and pattern is completely messed up. If you see me with bloodshot eyes, looking dazed, that’s why.

We’re in week three of sleep deprivation and I’m really hoping that letting her just cry it out will work by the end of this week. It’s heart breaking to listen to her screaming for us, but we’re desperate at this point.  I can’t focus on at home or at work. I’ve had to stop running again.  Life is just not enjoyable currently.  It’s hard to have fun as a family when everyone is tired and miserable.

I really hope Peanut turns the corner soon.

Happy 4th Birthday Peanut!

Dearest Peanut,

Happy, happy 4th birthday Peanut, my Honey Pie!  My Queen Elsa! (You’re really into Frozen these days and you want to be Queen Elsa.)  You’re finally 4!  I’ve been waiting for this particular birthday with part excitement and part trepidation.  With excitement because of all the new things you’ll be learning in the next year, but with trepidation because you’ll be growing up way to quickly.

You have regressed a bit (or is it a lot?) because you’re having bedtime accidents and you’re currently in nighttime diapers again.  While it would be nice if you were no longer wetting the bed, I’m not in any hurry to speed the time along.  I know from Soso that the years will go by too quickly anyway.  I’ll blink and I’ll be getting ready to write a 5th birthday letter!

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You’re still very much yourself.  You’re still a diva rock star princess.  You’ve learned somewhere to strut and pose like a model.  You’re really into wearing dresses, pretty shoes and you’re always asking me to do make your hair pretty.  You’re definitely my girly girl!

You still have the cutest smile and you sure know how to work it to your advantage!  You like to say “hello” to random strangers, but you get shy and bury your face in my arms with people you know.  You have what Koreans call “aegyo” which means cuteness and winsomeness.

You’re still such a peanut!   You’re finally in 3T pants and some 3T or 4T shirts and dresses.  Your shoe size is 7.5.  I’ll edit in your actual measurements when you go for your annual check-up next week.

You still love books and hopefully it will transfer to a love of reading like your sister.  You love your kitchen, puzzles, playing dress-up with your princess shoes and watching movies.  I’ve had to limit your movie watching to only before dinner time.  Some of your current favorites are Frozen, Tangled and interestingly enough Howl’s Moving Castle.

Your current favorite soft animal is Penny, Lucky’s sister.  I had bought Penny for you because I was concerned Lucky was going to fall apart from the constant washing. I was surprised by how quickly you transferred your love to Penny. When I asked why you loved Penny more, you answered, “Because she’s so soft and Lucky is hard.”  I wonder if I’m destined to haunt Ebay looking for Disney dalmatian puppy replacement every couple of years.

Pizza, calamari, rice with kimchi, hotdogs, breaded chicken and fish, tofu and Morningstar Grillers are your favorite foods.  You still love your veggies, including spinach, asparagus, broccoli, broccoli rabe, kale and green beans.  You still won’t eat a bite of green peppers.  I’m not complaining. You love junk food, too.  Chocolate is by far your favorite, followed by ice cream, cookies and cake.  Fortunately you love fruits, too. Strawberries are still the favorite, then apples and pears, grapes, bananas and oranges.  You’ll sometimes eat kiwi, mango, pineapples, peaches, blueberries, but not always.

You’ve graduated to kids’ toothpaste and you’re brushing and rinsing out your mouth pretty well.  You’ve gone from showering to taking baths again and you’re no longer afraid of the bath toy bugs.  You love washing your own hair with the scented kids’ shampoo.  You still need/want help getting dressed.  It all depends on your mood.

You’re still Daddy’s girl and you no longer want me exclusively for bedtime.  I knew it wouldn’t last and I admit to missing that special moment.  You do love me though and you know enough to feel bad when you choose Daddy.  You’ll give me an extra hug and a kiss and tell me you love me and I’m your favorite Mommy.

You’re such a shining star with your cute mischievous smile.  I love how you light up the room and make everyone fall for your charm.  You’re so full of joy and laughter.  I hope you continue to have more laughter than tears as you mature and leave your babyhood behind.

I love you my Peanut, my Honey Pie as you requested me to call you.  Happiest 4th birthday to you!

Love,

Mommy

P.S. How lucky are you that you got to celebrate your birthday multiple times!

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Happy Belated Easter!

We can never seem to take good Easter family photo.  This was the best of the bunch.

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We usually prepare a basketful of eggs the night before Easter and we find the eggs scattered around the yard, presumably by the Easter Bunny, the next morning.

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We had a few additional kids, cousins and friends join us this year for the egg hunt.

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Peanut looking very serious as she hunted for eggs.

 

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I did it a little differently this year in order to cut down on the number of candy.  I bought some bigger treats and prizes like chalk, plant starters, bubbles, etc as well as little candy treats.  The names of the bigger prizes were written on pieces of paper and hidden inside various eggs and the kids got whatever prizes were written on the eggs they found.

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