It is done. I have changed the age request. I don’t know if I did the right thing. We may have matched with a baby anyway. Healthy older children are just not that common. But I feel like I closed a door and it makes me feel like a coward. That somehow I lack courage. I feel confused and mixed up. I wish we didn’t have to make these kinds of decision. What can I do except just continue to hope and have faith that we’re doing the best we can?