Missing Mom

5 years have passed already and it happens less often, but once in a while… Just once in awhile, it creeps up on me and catches me unaware and I feel engulfed with sadness that she’s not with me now.

I struggle to remember her and I realize that the memories are fading.  As much as I’ve known her most of my life, 37 years in fact, all it takes is 5 years without her and the memories have already started taking on a wispy characteristic.  Hard to grasp and hold firm.  It probably doesn’t help because I have no one to help me keep her memories alive. My dad and brother and I, we don’t talk about Mom.

I miss my mom. I miss her terribly today.


So Sad…

In some ways, I think it would be a blessing if there was a gigantic asteroid heading for earth or a zombie apocalypse. May be if there is a threat to our entire world, it would bring us all together.  Or would we still fight among ourselves?

Run a Half Marathon? Check!


I ran the Newport Liberty Half Marathon in Jersey City on Sunday, my first half! I had a moment during the race when I wasn’t sure if I would be able to finish. I had a couple of moments when I thought I would not meet my stated goal of 2:11. I kept on pushing and I didn’t give up when I wanted to slow down the pace. I had used up all my reserve energy when I crossed that finish line, but I finished it at 2:09!

I can’t remember the last time I was proud of my accomplishment, but I am proud of myself.  I trained hard for 12 weeks, waking up at 5 in the morning 4 or 5 days out of the week and I stayed mentally tough when I felt physically weak.  I finished a half and I finished it strong!

Oh and now I can check off one more thing from my bucket list.